Can you figure me out... Or am I too confusing?

You have moved around a lot in your life, you find it easier to not get close to people, because it hurts when you lose them. Your family are the people who are generally, always there, so of course your biggest fear is to lose them. But that is something that you need to deal with. Let me also add, you probably tend to set yourself for failure in your relationships when you do take a chance. For example, you have chosen to be in a relationship with someone who lives more than 2100 miles away, if that is not disaster waiting to happen, I don't know what it is. There is nothing wrong with being a furry if that is how you are born. Shyness can be overcome, if you want it too. It sucks when you trust people, and that trust is broken, you need to decide who to give it too, because most people do not deserve it. Remember, that without trust, you will always feel alone. There should always be someone in whom you can trust.